1. We are not angry at the fact he is dating with Hyuna
that slut. We are angry with how he reacted to this situation with emotions other than fear and groveling before our fandom for forgiveness. If he had at least thought about his fans, he should have posted SOMETHING in this cafe to validate our pathetic meaningless existence. Hyuna did it on her Instagram for her fans, why not him? Do we even exist? It’s almost like I’m getting the uncanny feeling that I’m wasting my life by joining a fan cafe in the first place. What we saw was him smiling and touching his girlfriend’s shoulder on Music Bank aired on August 4th, and pictures of him in front of Cube Entertainment smiling and a V-posting on a fan’s comment shipping their relationship. (Before, he didn’t even respond to fans calling when meeting in front of Cube Entertainment even though I really screamed hard he didn’t even look at me, why not, he at least owes me that much.)
2. We are angry that Triple H was half-made for E-Dawn and Hyuna’s relationship
even though I’ll begrudgingly give them points for being devious, and how they failed on keeping their public and private life separate even though we constantly pried into it with all our energy, as often as we could. We had to know they were dating for two years through the news, which was when E-Dawn did not even debut as Pentagon. Now we understand they were “dating” through Triple H promotions, which makes us feel stupid for buying into the idol bullshit for all that time like the morons we are, and we’d really like to blame someone else for that besides ourselves. What were all the scenes of Hyuna and E-Dawn kissing and touching each other from the “365 Fresh” music video for? It’s bad enough that idols are rich and famous while we are not, how dare they also have fun where we can see it. It is really difficult for us to embrace this, we are okay if they have a relationship but only as long as they live in constant fear, secrecy and self-loathing.
3. There are complicated parts in the k-pop industry that I believe international fans will find hard to understand. Members of an idol group dating someone is not just something fans can cheer for,
we are far too insecure for that. It is true that we love them for their music and performance, but that’s just not it because actually our biases could release any old runny turds as a comeback and we’d be on our knees lapping it up anyway. It is not that we are falsely thinking that we have a chance to date them or something although I WISH IT WERE TRUE EDAWN WHY DIDN’T YOU REPLY TO MY MESSAGES, OMG I LOVE YOU YET I HATE YOU, or that they are possessions of ours even though that’s certainly how we fucking act. Fans love them for their “images” and dating someone damages that, and since we’re so superficial and stupid, “image” is the most important thing to us, much more important than music, fun, life, or the mental health of the idols that we claim to support. It’s hard to fully explain about the k-pop industry not that we would know anything about it anyway, given how easily we’re being led like rats by the Pied Piper at every opportunity by these companies, but I hope you guys understand at least a little bit about our situation of extreme gullibility and sexual frustration.
4. We really want to know whether he received consent from all the other members of Pentagon on revealing their relationship,
because if there’s no consent that means it’s RAPE. Cube Entertainment denied their dating, but Hyuna revealed it on her Instagram which means she’s a RAPIST, or something… I don’t know, but calling her a rapist certainly makes me feel a bit better. An idol group is business, and we can’t avoid the damage he is giving to other members… well, okay, it’s actually us who are doing the damage to the business by being a bunch of insecure shitheads about something fairly normal, but we’re really upset about this and it’s a lot more psychologically comforting to blame someone else for something that’s 100% our fault.
We Korean fans all feel bad about this situation
and we need you to feel bad too, to confirm our own emotions, because if you don’t also feel bad, that means we could be wrong to feel this way, which is a frightening thought to us that we’d rather ignore. We were at once all people who sincerely loved E-Dawn and Pentagon or rather we were obsessed with the image of E-Dawn and Pentagon, I’m not sure if “love” is an emotion we’ve fully developed yet. I hope we understand each other and make no more conflicts between us so please don’t try to engage with and debunk our arguments in a logical way, haven’t we suffered enough.
Oh and I won’t mind relocating this post to other media. Thank you.
Just not Kpopalypse blog, I’ve heard he’s a cunt.